Moura, Portugal, January 1481
Winter had yet to depart from the Portuguese lands. The land was white while the skies were grey from the black smoke of the fireplace. Water froze quickly but the sea was still raging as if Poseidon was riding his chariot like the knights of the reconquista, charging at the lands only to be pulled by himself. Manuel liked watching the waves clash against the land. It often made him wonder what was beyond the line where the sky would kiss the sea. Diego had told him once that the ocean was like a woman, beautiful but dangerous, destroying anyone who were of a weak mind. Manuel didn't like to belive what Diego had said but he couldn't be wrong though, he was Manuel's only brother alive and the man in Manuel's life. He had written to Diego that month and was really hoping to get an answer this time. A scream followed by a giggle destroyed the serenity of the space, causing Manuel to turn about. He saw the infanta of Castile laughing as her playmate, the daughter of the Captain of Tangier, screamed and ran in circles while Niño chased her with his children. Isabel was trying hard to control her laughter and could have easily been rolling on the ground.
She would be a good queen, Manuel thought, atleast better than Leanor for she's always fretting over what will happen to Alfonso. "My nephew isn't dying anytime soon" Manuel thought aloud. Manuel saw the eldest infanta giggle, run, fall and laugh. I am the only man who has seen the future Queen of Portugal in the manner of her girlhood, Manuel felt an air of superiority, not even her father not even my nephew... I did. Grinning in his newfound magnificence Manuel went back to watching the waves.
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Isabel couldn't hold her laughter as she watched Antonia try and fight against Niño, occasionally letting out a sharp scream.
"Get him away from me... get him away" Antonia shouted as Isabel caressed Juan and watched.
"Don't be silly dear, Niño is harmless" Isabel replied calmly.
"He will bit... he will..ahh" Antonia screamed as Niño jumped towards her.
Isabel sighed and smiled. She kept Juan down and went on to pick Niño up, stroking his back such that he calmed down in a few moments.
"You are too cowardly for a Portuguese " Isabel teased Antonia, who was too shocked to react to the insult. She simply straightened her skirts and gave Isabel a grumpy look.
"I find that you girls are having alot of fun", Isabel and Antonia look around found the Dowager Queen Joanna standing in the shadows of the palace, the light from the sun highlighting a certain sinister smile Isabel remembered seeing somewhere beforehand, she just didn't remember where.
"My lady" Isabel bowed in curtsy Antonia following suit. "How may we help you?"
"Ah Isabel dear, save that curtsy.... we are cousins and no one is watching.... let there be no formalities between us" Joanna said "why come inside.... it's too cold outside now and pretty ladies shouldn't spend much time out for it affects her beauty"
Isabel and Antonia looked at each other before deciding that it was really cold outside. They walked in and walked towards Joanna who immediately grabbed Isabel's shoulder once she was close enough.
"Why... you look so much like your mother" Joanna pulled Isabel's chin upwards before moving it around, inspecting Isabel's face, "the hair, the eyes, the face..... you are a Trastamára, are you not" Joanna's voice turned sinister, "I could have married you if you were a boy, dear Isabel". Isabel was getting uncomfortable with how Joanna was holding on to her, the hands sliding down.
"I... I.." Isabel muttered trying to free herself. Joanna silenced Isabel by putting a finger on her lips, she turned to Antonia, "My dear, would you mind leaving us a bit alone? I have met my cousin after a long time and would definitely like to learn more about her" Joanna smiled. Antonia nodded, looked at Isabel and walked off.
"Now that was an obedient girl" Joanna held Isabel tightly, "but we should definitely go to somewhere more private". Before Isabel could reply Joanna dragged her inside the castle, through the corridors and into a secluded spot. There was hardly any lights and Isabel felt a certain shiver down her spine. A single torch lit the entire corridor and the dust around the palace made it seem that people rarely came to this portion of the palace.
"So Isabel.... Named after your mother.... I almost feel that she is here... " Joanna said cupping Isabel's face with one hand while the other held her tightly. Joanna's touch made Isabel wimp in pain.
"My lady please be gentle it hurts" Isabel requested. Joanna laughed.
"Hurts?.... Oh my dear you don't know what actually hurts..... And with a mother as yours don't expect gentleness". Joanna pushed Isabel against the wall, closing the distance between them.
" You do not know your mother my dear" Joanna bowed down such that the space between their faces dimed as the torche's light. "You simply do not know your mother.... If it was not for her there would have been a Queen Joanna of Castile... If it were not for her I would not have been forced to bed an old man and then rot in a convent"
Isabel was visibly shaking now. Her cousin saw that and smiled, a smile that began to come back to Isabel from the dark of her memory, she knew that smile.
"What happened dear" The former queen of Portugal mocked "afraid?.... Because you should be" The hands that had gripped Isabel's shoulders began to move down and gripped her hips. The infanta of Castile understood what was to come.
"Joanna please... " There were tears in her eyes as Isabel struggled against her much stronger cousin.
"You are not getting any mercy anytime soon..... You look so much like your mother.... How much do I keep the urge to throw you in the ground, to tear off your garments.... To throw a knife deep inside you... To watch you struggle to live" Joanna sneered, her hands were traveling up and down over Isabel. She leaned in and whispered "and don't tell anyone dear..... Your mother doesn't like stains"
Isabel was crying now, she didn't want to, she didn't want Joanna to see her weakness but what happened in the next few moments were a complete blur of pain, tears and agony. Before she collapsed in her bed, the safety of her chambers Isabel remembered the bloodshot eyes of the Dowager Queen, her laughter close to madness, her appearance that of a witch. She remembered what Joanna screamed as she ran from her clutches, that her mother was a thief, a usurper. Maybe she was right, for the smile, it dawned on Isabel, she had seen it on the former king of Castile's face.